REBELLING TONIGHT YO!
HAHAS.
It's been a long time since I blog.
Be busy with attachment in GIC.
The people here are awesome, just that a lil but quiet for me to be noisy.

Birthday boy is gonna get drunk today! HAHA

I'm too tired. way too tired.
I just want to be myself, be who i am.
why is my life like this?
why can't i do whatever i want?
you know, i could have choose not to respect your decision, go ahead with what i want.
but, i choose to respect you cause you're my love.
can't you spare a thought for me?
continue to ignore me for all i care, cause i'm too tired to bother for now.
if you could remember, i told you once. i hate ppl hang up my call when they're angry!
yes, i'm pissed off, but i didnt do it in front of you, thus i'm doing this in virtual world.
i seriously want to end all this now.
i can never be like your children, because each child have their differences.
and i'm not those who can stay at home.
because, this is simply so boring.
i study hard, why cant i play hard too.
you know, whenever i'm within ur control, i couldn't release all my stress!
this is so terrible.
i'm mentally breakdown.
i'm a good girl who respects you, i didnt smoke, didnt do bad things.
what more do you expect me from?
i'm turning 19 soon, i need my life!
i want to live for the sake of my own!

hey, do you know that i'm missing you right now, every single days.
i still remember those days when i'm young, you will always bring me out, buy food, buy tit bits.
i still remember those days when i was still a kid, you will carry me back home when i fell asleep in car.
i still remember before the first day when i went into secondary school, you accompany to take the bus together and tell me which stops to alight.
on the first day of my secondary school, you took half day leave just to accompany took bus to school. i kept asking you to go home when i alighted, but you choose to follow behind me till i reached school safely.
you always manage to drive me to school every single day despite me complaining and showing you attitude.
during secondary 4, i still remember that i call you on the phone, telling you "Dad, I love you"
you were kind of like shock, asking me what had happened.
everytime, when mum doesnt allow me, you will allow me to do so, asking me to be careful.
I miss those days, every morning you will call me wake up to school, make coffee for me, refill my water bottle, sending me to school.
I miss those days, you always like to disturb me, making me pissed off and felt irritated.
too much memories to reminiscence.
i just simply miss you...

CAN'T YOU JUST MAKE THE FIRST MOVE INSTEAD?

well, doing some blog hopping just now.
seems so restless to get anything done.
might be due to the late night out recently.
our class is damn great today, with an attendance of 18 students.

sometimes, i'm wondering does true love ever exist?
but whatever it is, i'm not gonna find any loves.
love my life now.
with freedom, able to do whatever i want.
having bunch of party friends.
it will be damn better if there isnt any projects, works!
but money still rolling in.
life will be great if only i can spend times with friends doing whatever shit we want!